In Christ

So i'm a Christian.  Which means that I follow the teachings of Christ, and am willing to admit that yes, I am not enough but the Creator of the Universe is- so much that He became man, lived with us & then let us kill Him in the full Glory of resurrection & life.  Basically, boom son, your sins are forgiven - you are alive- welcome to the wide world of no worries.

However, my relationships with my fellow man- that's woman, child, and man have been the cornerstone of my understanding of who Christ is.  While looking for Christ in each other I lost sight of actually looking at Christ..  The message this morning, and I listened to it twice because it was that good, directly reflected this issue- if everything is ancillary to my relationship with Christ, then why is it so easy for man to become wrapped up in man?  And why is the direct answer to that question, here on this planet to say, ok, I'm not wrapped up in man- but I can and should be wrapped up in myself?

So- over the next month or so i'm going to make an effort to flipping back inside out- and realigning my relationship with the world with really who Christ is in my life.  I feel like a new creation inside, full of joy.  It's the minute I start addressing situations from the "well i..." or "what if...", the doubt that comes from being human- being placed onto a God that is undoubtedly sovereign that I shrink because I attempt to force God to shrink.

I was blessed and encouraged by part of the message today.  It seems, as it were I've been reading up on "dating" lately.  I am not exactly, keen on it. Frankly the whole system is corrupt- the games that are played disgust me & I've since been detached from the girl pack mentality that I have a few.. specific.. rants.

I refuse to complain about things that I know are part of someone.  I refuse to whine or throw tantrums.  I refuse to blame or cause drama.  The only time I would ever do this is when I, myself, am being accused of something that is not true.  And even then, it seems the more I grow in my understanding of who Christ is the more I understand how much more not caring is caring.  It's the looking someone in the eyes, as JR put it today, and saying, yes I see you for what you are but I know you are greater than this.  I know you are better than this, I am willing to have the patience to see what happens.  I do not see faults when I look at my friends or family, and I suck at relating this to others.  I find myself in identity crisis when I don't allow myself to fully express myself how I want to express myself- but relate instead to the common denominator.  I do not want to argue, I do not want to do anything that does't give love.  If it's not an action that is based out of love, then I want absolutely nothing to do with it.  Personal action that is.

It is because of the person who Christ is that I can be the person that I am.  Not a doormat, not a pushover- not a loser, not a desperate, a daughter of God who has enough love flowing through her that there is no more room for death & condemnation.  Praise God.

And these next few weeks, they will be the starting of an adventure in which these ideals are lived out to their fullest.


Now if you'll excuse me, I have a date with Elijah, my Ibanez.